Gday!

Well firstly.. Hello to all of you.. yes I know its been quite awhile since I have left anything on here but hopefully the crazies of my life might settle down a little in the near future.

Unfortunately, Im digging deep to write something insightful on here tonight, but all Ive got is that Im tired, its been a huge week and god bless weekends.

But before I end this short and boring blog, I just wanted to let someone know that Im thinking of them, and yes you know who you are.. Its like Ive hit a mighty big brickwall in contacting you and hopefully you will see this and know that Im here and that I miss you.

Anyway thats it for Nicole tonight, but I will get something more interesting down in the next couple of days.

Big bear hugs and sloppy kisses for all

Nic xxx

Explanation time..

Ok, ok explanation time.. (for those who keep asking). My little blurb that I wrote a couple of posts ago, even though it had a suicide letter ha ha, it purely had to do with work. For once I grew a backbone and stood my ground and for that I got a promotion, partial work from home (in school hours) and more money. I know that might have been a tad dramatic for work, but I was a on a high. And that is that. Nic xxx

My mind set at the moment..

In my Head.. 12 Stones I'm reaching out without a sound My pride falls to the floor again Inside my mind I search to find A place just to call my own Deep inside your eyes I am blinded by your love Still I run so far just to find that I'm alone again In my head I hear you calling me And I can't run ‘cause there's nothing left for me When I fall you always follow me deep inside Deep inside Deep inside of my head I just can't last as these feelings pass Once again I hide the pain inside The smile wears thin and the lies begin To bring me down again Deep inside your eyes I am blinded by your love Still I run so far just to find that I'm alone again In my head I hear you calling me And I can't run ‘cause there's nothing left for me When I fall you always follow me Deep inside of my head When I run I run so far away from you I hide the pain and all the lies deep inside again And all my faith I put in you This time you take it all away Inside my head Deep inside My head

In my head
I hear you calling me
And I can't run ‘cause there's nothing left for me
When I fall you always follow me deep inside
Deep inside
Deep inside of my head

If only the feelings were set in stone,
If only you would tell me what I want to hear,
whispers gently tell a thousand words.

Marked in stars, they gloriously shimmer,
state of mind focused and clear,
breathing deep and slow,
I'm ready to jump, for the first time in my life.