Confusing....

I wish I could speak the words that are so twisted and entangled in my head at the moment. I try to think back to a time where minor comodoties where just that, minor comodoties. Do we try to think way to outside the box every step that we take whilst getting odder, I hate to think what my mind will be like when im 70.

The last time I had a chat close friend the conversation was full of umms and arrs the whole way through. I don't get the fact that two people who apart from living thousands upon thousands of miles away, living two totally separate lives can talk about absolutely nothing. Do we grow out of our friends? Or do we grow out of ourselves? I personally think no, but when forced conversation starts to play on peoples emotions I think that's when you take a step back and analyse what the hell is going on.

I think the fact that Im tired and both physically and mentally at the moment makes me a very boring person and this is billowing from me.

What to do, what to do? I wish that things didn't seem so much of a struggle at the moment, Im trying my hardest to be positive for everyone else's sake but maybe for the moment maybe I need to take some of my own advise and deal with the issues at hand. It sucks that you get to the point where this is necessary in order to keep up the current trend of your life.

This to you might just be muddled and confusing, but unfortunately this is where my head is at, at the moment. A huge big jigsaw puzzle with half the pieces missing. But hey a least I could report on the letter D.. LOL.

Oh well, that is life.